Fast forward ten years to February of 2008....We had lost touch. He was in the military and he found me on Myspace. I couldn't believe it! I had a huge crush on him throughout our school years and he was just as adorable as he had always been. We talked through email for months. I think this helped us to build a strong foundation for our relationship. He came home from a deployment in August of 2008 and stayed for a month. We both knew we had found something special in one another. He came home again for a week over Christmas and we were inseparable.
In May of 2009, he came home for good. He was home for about a week and we were engaged. It all happened so fast but I wouldn't have it any other way. We had about a month to plan our wedding. It was hectic and fun, stressful and scary. There were so many emotions running through both of us but we managed to make it through the wedding without a hitch.
We both knew we wanted to start a family right away. We tried and tried but nothing happened. We talked to my lady doctor about our options and did Clomid for a few months with no success. After that, we tried Femara and it did the trick! I ovulated!!! But, we didn't conceive. The doctor decided to try it again and for the next two or three months, it did nothing. I was so mad. I started taking it out on my wonderful husband. It wasn't his fault but I needed to be mad and he was the closest thing to me.
We have been to a fertility specialist but we don't have very good insurance and everything pertaining to infertility costs an arm and a leg. I decided I would go back to school to get a job with better insurance and that is where we are now.
It has been a long road so far but we haven't given up hope. Through my god and bad days, my husband has been here to tell me it will be okay and that it will happen sooner or later. I am not sure how I got so lucky but I am so grateful that I have such an amazing person to go on this journey with. I am hoping that this blog will help to relieve some of the stress that infertility brings. It won't solve all of our problems though.
I have PCOS. That is just a fancy way of saying that my body is intentionally killing off my eggs. I also suffer from hypothyroidism so I gain weight easily and it takes a boatload of work to lose it. I'm also insulin resistant.
On a happy note, we quit smoking. We were told that smoking greatly decreases our chances of conception so we stopped. On the other hand, because we quit, I gained quite a bit more weight. This doesn't help. Being overweight can also prevent conception. I have some work to do but I will get there.
Some days are better than others....Some aren't. I suppose it will just be a waiting game to see what each day holds.
~Laci~
